Its funny,As I lose my hair, I seem to become more and more obsessed with it. I am constantly looking at other peoples' hair noticing it, sometimes wishing my hair could be like that. I then realize it can (hello wigs!). I have been doing a pretty good job at accepting my hair loss and I am enjoying my wigs a lot. I do however miss the ability to put my hair up. This is not an easy task with a wig as it kind of shows the hair line. I can get a full lace wig which has the bonus of being able to be put up anyway I want, they tend to be a little pricy so I will hold off for now, but I'm sure eventually the mood will strike and I will have to have my signature bun back.
One interesting thing I have discovered with this hair loss is just how amazing it is when God says he knows the number of hairs on our heads. You never realize just how many hairs there truly are until they all start falling out. My hair comes out by the brushful and then by the handful and I still have tons left. I had even lost at least 2/3 of my hair prior to this whole Cancer and Chemo thing due to my transplant meds and the stress of the surgery. I keep brushing my hair out each day expecting it to be the end of it and yet it just keeps going. I have what seems like 10 pieces left and yet I still don't think any human would be capable of actually counting each hair I have. Not just time wise. Hair is so complex. I figured you just had all the hair you see growing out, you know the long pieces (well on a long haired person) well you don't. All those little baby hairs you see around your hair line.... you have them everywhere! I keep finding all these little hairs in my sink and I'm like who the heck does this belong to, cuz it's certainly not long enough to be mine, but I have my own bathroom so it definitely is my hair. CRAZY right, who knew our heads were covered in all these ity bitty baby hairs, there are probably thousands or even millions of those and no one ever sees them. Add that to all the hair we do see and we truly have an amazing God just to be able to know all the hairs down to the very last one on each of our very unique heads!
Just an interesting thought to leave you with! Enjoy the pondering and feel free to comment your thoughts on this!