Moving On

So Im sad to tell you that its been so long since I last posted that I actually forgot how to write a new blog post!  (I'll blame it on the chemo brain, how long does that last by the way?)  But as I mentioned before I am living a healthy productive, rich life and for that I am not sorry!  I am continuing to make progress.  A few weeks ago I got my G-tube out.  It is a little bitter sweet, my tube was the last remnant of my old life that still remained, well except for my crappy stomach, but we have already covered that one. see here  Anyway, it hasn't been too rough having it out.  I had thought I would need surgery to get the hole closed but the doc thought it would close on its own.  I decided to give it a go and see if I can save myself a surgery.  So far it is closed for the most part (Hallelujah praise the lord!)  it leeks from time to time but most of the time its nice and dry!

As I lose my old life physically the last dried shriveled up remnants are falling off mentally.  My job has been a great help to shake off the last part of my anxiety!  (shake it off, shake it off Oh Oh... there is some real truth to that song yo!)  I am also beginning to get used to this whole idea of being active.  Today for instance I went on a walk through the Mecca of all dog parks and I enjoyed every minute of it!  The old me would have been miserable and constantly calculating where the next place to rest is and the fastest way back to the car.  But I wasn't I barely even felt like I was doing any work at all, and lets be honest walking isn't exactly strenuous exercise!  At Easter I got a lot of my family to play kick ball and I had a blast.  Running from base to base was no problem.  I almost would go as far as to say I love moving!  Not like formal excise but I do love doing active things!  The old pathway of my brain have grown over and I no longer despise excise and with that its time to step, maybe even run into the new improved and probably more true to who I am, me!

Hello Again!

I'm back.  I can't believe it has been a month since I last posted.  EEK!!!  I really need to get better at posting.  I mostly put it off because I don't know what to write, so if you have an idea for me, comment below!

Anyway, things are going pretty well for me.  I got a job, my first ever!!!  It is going well.  I am working at a coffee shop, which is good, but a little overwhelming at times.  I am also taking a class this semester, my first time back in 2 years!  I have discovered that my chemo brain seems to be long lasting as I am having the hardest time remembering things at work and school.  I used to be so good at remembering things and now, well.....who am I?  Hopefully this improves as time goes on, but if not, well, I guess I'll just have to figure it out.

Pepper is doing well, though she is going through her terrible 2s faze.  She is being such a stinker lately.  I'll give her a command and she just looks at me like, nope I don't have to do that.

Currently I am sitting at Peet's coffee in Phoenix on the GCU campus!!!! (yes Dad they have Peet's here!) Before you get too excited, Nope I'm not back at school, well I am but not as a student.  I am here visiting Jenna!!!!!!!!!  It has been so fun and super good to see her.  I haven't seen her in like 9 months!!!!  She could have had a baby and I wouldn't have even known about it!  (No she didn't have a baby)  Its been so nice, its almost like I never left, well except that everything is different...and I can walk...but.... yeah, just the same!

Welp, good talk!  Keep on Keepin on!  I'll try to post more!  Ok bye now!

Drugged!

I'm slightly drugged at the moment so bare with me if things get a little cray cray :p !  Haha ok so I'm not really that drugged but, you know me (just a tad dramatic!). Anyway it is the end of day three, over halfway done!  The rest of yesterday wasn't too bad. I did get my first ever arterial blood gas draw though which was a little rough.  It hurt, it wasn't THAT bad but my body decided that it was and decided to bail.  Luckily this wasn't the first time that had happend to me after being poked, allowing me to know sugar would bring me back to the world.  I got it just in the nick of time and returned from the quiet white world I was passing through on my way to nothingness.  (Yes, I'm talking about nearly passing out!). Anyway besides that little fluke the rest of, the rest, of yesterday went pretty smooth! 

Today I had my heart catheterization which was not bad.  It's funny cuz I was the most nervous about it yet it, so far, was the easiest of the bad sounding tests.  It was also done fast, for hospital time!  I was able to go back to the house and take a nap (did I mention I was drugged?) and see a movie at the theater!  We saw White House Down.  It was pretty good and I liked having a break from hospitalness for a bit!  

As for the previously mentioned drugging, no I have not suddenly become a heroin addict.  (what!  You never thought that was what I was talking about, darn :p)  I was given versed and something else for the heart cath.  Versed is supposed to calm you and make you not remember but this stuff never works for me.  It simply makes me feel funny and later I get really tired.  Luckily as I mentioned the procedure went well so it wasn't a problem that I was fully conscious, unlike for my wisdom teeth removal.  That is a story for another day, plus it's getting late here and I have some more lovely tests tomorrow, vq scan and a 24 hr ph probe (eek!) so I better get to bed.  Nighty night all you readers out there ( do they have a name for blog readers/followers, like how if you blog you are a blogger...Readogger?... Blogollower?Hum I kinda like that!)

 don't let the bed bugs bite, you blogollowers!

My drug delivery method!